The Redemption of the Past

Looking into the hazy, happy, blurry, dark past, I feel both nostalgic and sad. Until a few weeks ago, there was too much pain to even want to look back. Pain of both what I faced, and what I caused others to endure. Regrets. Sorrow. Hurt. Sadness. It took hard work to remember the good. But nearly nothing to trigger the painful. Life had become an unending blur of gray shadows, bare and devoid of feelings. 

BUT

There is redemption. And it happened to me. 

I really hate changing up the tone of a blog that has been full of cute puppies and even cuter children. Of sunshine and happiness, of that "perfect" family I wanted so desperately to be. I dislike "bait and switch" tactics, and I hope you don't feel that this losing the light and fluffy exterior is a deal breaker. If so, please feel free to not bother to look here again. I tried starting other blogs, but they never made it anywhere and fizzled out quickly. Granted, I've taken a break of a couple of years from this one too. But I'm back... to tell an untold story. Yes, there will still be puppies and flowers, joy and sunshine. Only this time the sunshine is brighter, and the laughter real laughter. And intermingled will be pieces of our journey... my journey. A journey from pain to the redemption of that pain. A look beyond the façade into the heart. A broken heart. A broken life, underneath the prettier but shallow tapestry of appearances. A brokenness that is there to embrace, and watch the Light shine out and make whole. A redemption. I trust it will be beautiful, and I invite you to walk this path with me.